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Very Harmful Transference

This website has brought me great comfort over the years as I struggled through a torturous experience with erotic transference. There may be patients who have come out of these situations unharmed or the better for it. I, however, found romantic transference to be emotionally devastating and the most difficult thing I've ever dealt with.

I've always considered myself to be relatively stable and emotionally resilient until I became abnormally attached to a psychiatrist while in a short-term treatment program. Though married, I fell madly in love with him and was deliriously happy at first, especially when I started to sense that the feelings might be mutual. Right before the program ended, he made a pass at me and I responded very awkwardly. I was confused and nervous.

Our interaction changed over night. He changed from a sensitive, attentive doctor whom I completely trusted to an insensitive and distant one. I became self-protective. I thought I could move on, but I quickly realized after I stopped seeing him that I couldn't function without him and I began calling him, hoping he would see me again. Whereas I had felt some confidence with him previously, the dynamic quickly changed and I became increasingly insecure and desperate, while I think he perceived me as demanding and difficult. I never saw him again. We communicated only through voicemail messages for months and it became humiliating for me. I was treated like I had to audition to be his patient. He also ignored my transference and acted like he didn't know why I was calling, even though I'd told him I felt dependent on him.

I finally gave up. I couldn't take both the humiliation of being so attached to someone who didn't care about me and the unbearable pain of him not caring for me. Over the next two years my mental health deteriorated further, as did my marriage. Some of my symptoms included: thinking about him every waking moment, inability to sleep or eat (I was nauseated every day of my life for 3 1/2 years), nightmares, talking to myself, intense regret that it was all my fault. I was terrified that i was teetering on the edge of insanity, so I finally sought help. I spent two years with a psychotherapist who was knowledgeable in transference, and it did help, although it did not cure me.

It's been many years and what's left now is less the transference and more the pain of the trauma. I cannot get over his abandonment of me. I rationally understand that this man had no responsibility to me and was not part of my life in any way, yet emotionally I feel like a child who had been cruelly abandoned by a parent. I don't blame him. He has no way of knowing how this impacted me, and I think he subscribes to the prevailing opinion in the mental health field that romantic transference is akin to a crush and not something serious enough to merit treatment. I don't blame him, but I will never forgive him for not offering me a safe, secure environment to work through these overwhelming feelings.

What is wrong with me that this experience had such a debilitating effect on my life and will I ever get over it?



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